Chunky Chic in Paradise

I’m the Chunky Chic in Paradise a.k.a. Shiloh. I live on Maui, I am at a point in my life where I can make some serious positive changes to the way I think, feel, and live. I'm tired of the negative stigmas towards overweight people. I have been overweight for the past 20 years and I have shied behind my weight for many reasons. Now I am ready to bust out behind my fat cells and get out there and LIVE.
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Getting my fitness on at the tennis courts. Playing tennis and running court laps great cardio workout.

I feel that this is a great time to write about this subject. I feel that there are too many negative stigmas being thrown around in regards to Robin William’s death. I’d like to say that his passing has gotten me to ponder on some very important aspects of my own life and my own depression.

Living with Depression is no easy feat. I personally don’t wake up everyday hearing birds sing and breath in the scent of morning dew, etc. Every morning seems to be different for me. Some mornings I am happy to wake up and see the sun peaking through the clouds, some mornings I lay in my bed with my eyes closed contemplating why I am still breathing, and some mornings I am fixated on the long list of “to-dos” that I have to get done.

A person with depression is not a coward, they are not weak, or selfish. I am neither of those things, I am strong, beautiful, resilient, and I am a fighter. Everyday is a conscious choice to either be PRESENT or DISTANT. Some days are easier and some are harder. Depression has been a part of my life from the time that I was a very little girl. 

I am lucky to say that there were small amounts of times in my life that I have lived without depression. I am thankful everyday for my sons because fulfilling their needs surpassed my depression needs. I will be the first to admit that I should have sought out help, but at the time I was in an abusive relations (yes, that added to the depression).

In late 2008 I told my mom that I was ready to check-out of this world. I was done! I was tired of being hit, I was physically ill, I was beyond done faking my happiness. I am not big on religion, but my mom prayed for me and got me to pray for myself. After a few months doors were being opened and changes were being made.

So, here I am now 6 years later. I STILL live with depression, but I have better skills of taking care of myself. I am in a healthy relationship, and I do have HELP. Thank you MOM. 

If you know of some one who is suffering with depression please take the time to show them you care. HUG them if they allow it. Smile at them, say “good morning”, or just make your presence known. Offer to go and get coffee with them, or share a new song that you heard on the radio. Finally if you are reading this and are living with depression I want to tell you personally that, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Here are some helpful links:

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I just wanted to share some of my scenery with you :)

I set out to find one and I found 100. I think I will pick at least 5 to use daily.

58. My thoughts are my reality and I am thinking of a bright new day.

74. There is a great reason that this is unfolding before me now.

1. I feel the love of those who are not physically around me.

97. The past has no power and no hold over me anymore

100. I am deeply fulfilled with who I am.

I am going to be the first one to admit I haven’t been very kind to my body, mind, and spirit. I have not been taking the best care of myself and for that I am reaping the side affects and they sure aren’t pretty. I need to create an awesome personal affirmation that will get embedded into my soul, my being. An affirmation that will linger and last through all my days.

Lately I have been depressed, stressed, and worried beyond belief. A death in my family, my children, and the health of my husband. Too much on my plate some days. I am horrible at taking care of myself because by nature I want to take care of everyone else. I seriously for the better good of my own being is to put me first. My husband and children love me and they want me to be the best that I can be, so I ask myself what is my problem, don’t I want that for myself? I do! 

The most positive aspect in my day so far is realizing what I have been doing/not doing for myself. With any goal that one tries to complete there will be good days, bad days, and best days. I want to have more good days and best days. The only way I can go about do that is to make the conscious decision to do so. I need to make time for myself and to love myself. I need to remind myself that I can not be my best and take care of everyone when I am at my worst. 

My goal for today is to find that one AFFIRMATION that will help me in my TRANSFORMATION.

If you have a free day while on Maui, then I highly suggest you spend it at Maui Ocean Center. This is Maui’s only aquarium. Maui Ocean Center has everything that you need; fish, touch ponds, turtles, sharks, gift shop, and a restaurant. 

They do have accommodations for those who are wheelchair bound, there is plenty of room throughout the aquarium. This is also a fluffy friendly place; meaning, any size can enjoy themselves here.

Once you step through the front door you are greeted by friendly staff, after purchasing your tickets you step outside and it’s time to “smile” you get your picture taken, then you can go to the kiosk to pick up hand-held info device that will tell you all about the different fish, etc. Your first learning experience is the wave pool, here there are lots of fish swimming about (basically a teaser of what you will see), then you step inside of the aquarium. It is dark, and cool (thanks for a/c), and all around you are tanks of different shapes and sizes. Take your time there is no rush, just let yourself be there and take it all in. You sake your way through one building then on to the next building which leads you to the outside tanks, finally you get to see the connection with the Polynesians and the ocean, the Hawaiian Monk seal, and then BAM sharks. 

Each time that I have visited the aquarium I am always discovering new things. On the outside of the aquarium they have a few tanks and a touch pool. I love the turtle pool. Here they rescue injured sea turtles, care for them, and then release them back into the ocean. They also have a shark tank too. It is a amazing to watch the hammerhead sharks swim up to the glass. Once of my favorite places has to be the touch pool. The touch pool is definitely a learning experience, they have different types of sea stars, sea cucumbers (haha everyone must hold one of theses at least once in your life), sea urchins, and different types of coral. When you are done step outside and pic up your photo, go and visit the gift shop (this place LITERALLY has something for EVERYONE), or get a bite to eat at their restaurant (I felt guilty eating fish, but it tasted soooo good)

I would like to add that Maui Ocean Center prides itself of being a great educational asset to Maui not only for our visitors, but also for the Kama’aina (locals). Throughout the aquarium there are areas with interactive stations, photos, statues, and more.

My favorite place in the whole aquarium would have to be the jellyfish tanks. I could sit on those benches and watch these amazing creatures swim about for hours. In all honesty I could go there on a weekly basis and never get bored.